We Can’t Change Our Past

We Can’t Change Our Past

My name is Boriana Todorova. I live in Bulgaria, and I am a survivor of child sexual abuse. Perhaps I should start with the fact that my father was an abusive alcoholic. He was the reason that my mother was in hospital several times to recover from severe beatings when I was still a baby. Eventually one day in his drunken delirium he grabbed a knife and went to my baby bed saying now he is going to kill me – the baby he believed it wasn’t his. Then my mother ran away with me and finally decided to leave him and get a divorce. My mother moved to another town with me. A few years later my father died of liver cancer, which followed naturally after many years of alcoholism. The new town is where my sad story began. I was safe when I was still in kindergarten. But later when I was six years old I went to school, which was two minutes away from our block. So when I finished school about noon every day I was supposed to walk home alone. I had a key to our apartment on a necklace. And then home I was alone till my mother comes back from work. Every day. This is when the abuse took place. We had this wonderful neighbors family in the apartment next door. The parents were my mother’s colleagues. They had two teenage kids, a boy and a girl. They were supposed to check on me in the afternoon if I needed something, help with my homework or else. The boy, I believe by then he was 15-16 years old. He usually invited me to their apartment or stayed in ours to make his deviant fantasies come true. By then I didn’t realize what was going on. And somehow I even agreed to all these “doctor-patient games.” I don’t remember much of the abuse or many details. I have been trying so hard to forget about it all. I blocked the memories so deep in my mind that sometimes I wonder if it ever happened. But then a scene of it surfaces and I realize that nobody would make this up. Nobody would lie that this horrible things happened to him. Nobody wants to be a victim. And I was. I learned a lot about child molestation recently and I know there should have been a grooming process when the molester wins your trust. But the truth is that I believed and trusted this guy because I’ve been told not to trust strangers, not to speak to strangers, not to take candies from strangers. So I never expected that the boogeyman is the guy...

Read More

Free Sara Kruzan

Free Sara Kruzan

Sara Kruzan was sentenced to life in prison without the possibility of parole for killing her pimp when she was 16 years old. First molested at the age of 5, Sara was repeatedly victimized as a child suffering molestation, gang rape and being forced into prostitution ALL BY THE AGE OF 13. During her 18 years in prison, Sara has been a model prisoner. She has earned her high school diploma, a college degree and has been a mentor to other prisoners. Acting on a clemency request, then Governor Schwarzenegger commuted her sentence allowing her the possibility of parole. It is not enough. Sara has worked extremely hard to overcome the tragedy of her childhood and deserves a 2nd chance at life. To learn more about Sara’s story, visit www.iamsjk.com. Please sign the Change.org petition asking for her release from prison. Read more survivor’s stories… Read our Commenting...

Read More
Follow

Get every new post delivered to your Inbox

Join other followers